My sleep schedule is so fucked up, so here I am again. I dunno what I'm gonna do about my sleep schedule, but I think I'm gonna try the benadryl thing. but thats not why I'm here. I wanted to give you guys my livejournal address in case you wanted to continue reading my complaints.


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And if you want to see what I'm up to late at night, here's a peek at the latest socks I'm working on that the lucky gets for christmas! (I can never keep my presents a secret, so she already knew she was getting them)

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Yup, those are little snitches I knitted into that sock. I'm making the mismatched socks Dobby gives to Harry in the fourth Harry Potter book. I'm very excited about them, except that I have to use size one knitting needles to make them. for reference... think of basically a long toothpick, thats about the size they are, no exaggeration.

So yeah! Thanks again everyone for being awesome. I'm off to try to fall asleep.

and I love them to death.

So... yeah... I'm awake. I havent been able to sleep lately. I thought it was 'cause I was staying up till these crazy hours, but then I went to sleep at a respectable time a few nights after taking some benadryl, but now I'm right back to staying up till at least 5. Blaaah.

So... I really need a livejournal, because... well... my DA is not supposed to be for late night typings that don't mean anything. Yes, other people do that, but I'm not nearly as awesome as them, and no one cares what I write.

But some may argue that that gives me more of a reason to write it. No one will read it, so I can write whatever crap I want.

So... currently I suck ass. I still have a bunch of school work to finish up from an incomplete I took last semester, which I have an incredibly hard time doing. Its due september 30th, but I'd like to finish it before the next semester starts (Aug. 30th) so I don't have another thing to add onto what I will be getting.

So what do I do instead of my work? or while I'm trying to calm down from a panic attack enough to do work? I knit. and nothing for costumes either. well... there were three things for a costume, but you've seen them and they're done. I should get working on the costumes I have to do by November, but I'm not completely sure about one costume, which is blocking me from doing any.

Again, I suck at life. I can't bring myself to do any work, which makes me realize I'll never be able to function in society, not to mention my lack of social skills and my fear of my sudden realization that I'm supposed to make sure everyone is happy and don't get their feelings hurt, despite what it may due to me, I'm pretty much terrified about whats to come in my life. In fact, I hardly feel like I'm living it because I don't feel like I've been making progress, which is all my own doing, because I wont do any work, because I'm uber depressed about all of the above. I physically can't bring myself to do it. I tell myself to open the document for my final, and I don't do it, I tell myself to type and I don't do it. then I have a massive panic attack, punch the wall and spend an hour trying to calm myself down.

By knitting. I will eventually put up a website where I will be selling stuff I can make. (costumes and other such things. Even parts of costumes, I know alot of times I've thought "well, I can make that and that but I can't make that. I wonder if I could commission someone to make it for me" but often times you have to buy the whole costume or nothing at all.) in the last month and a half I have knit three pairs of socks, two baby sweaters, a pair of hobo gloves, a hat and a scarf. I am currently working on two more pairs of socks, a large adult sweater, and a worry hat (based on [link] ) and have lined up to make 3 more pairs of socks, and two scarves. All of this needs to be done by christmas.

Yeah... I need to get my brain sorted out. but stopping in the middle of trauma therapy is not a good idea. pretty much fucks everything up. I'm worse than I was before I started. Its like how I felt in 8th grade, except its at a point in my life that really matters this time.

And one of my heroes, Senator Ted Kennedy died two nights ago. Exactly a year after his amazing speech at the Democratic National Convention. He will be dearly missed. I hope we can get this health care bill passed without him. I'm wearing my Kennedy for US Senate shirt for the next few days I've decided.

And I'm gonna go back to knitting. I think I have to redo one of the socks I made.

god I feel so guilty complaining when almost all my friends have it worse off.

Why do any of you deal with me and my complaining?

Yes, yet again I am changing what I'm doing with this.

As you can see if you look at my gallery, I have taken down all my pictures except six. I will no longer post photos of my costumes during photoshoots, as is my photographer, and posts all those on her page. This page is going to become my page of all the things I create. so all photographs of my costumes will be pictures that display my work, not the work of the photographer, does that make sense?

Also, I'm gonna make some business cards so when I go to cons I can give them to people so they can commission me. I think I'm also gonna start putting tags on my clothing and costumes I make.

And in case anyone wants to know, I am home now after a long vacation on Lake Willoughby, Vermont, and now I'm getting everything ready for Connecticon, this will be my first time entering a costume in a contest and I'm so nervous that I am editing my Suki costume so its perfect.

As for my Hawkeye costume, I'm worried I wont be able to go as her to Connecticon because my wig is currently at a friend's house, and I don't know if I will be seeing this friend before Connecticon and don't know if she is going. Hopefully I can figure SOMETHING out.

I gotta also get started on my Nurse Chapel (Star Trek) costume for New England Fan Experience. tempted to make the Amok Time Nurse Chapel with plomeek soup and all (you get some serious points if you have any idea what I'm talking about) but I may feel silly, especially if I end up getting Leonard Nimoy's autograph in that costume. Yeah... I'm worried about making a fool of myself in front of Leonard Nimoy.

Oh and I'll probably show up to AAC for at least a day, since my college roommate wants to go. So basically, heres the plan:

Connecticon in August
AAC in October
New England Fan Experience in November

Anyone else going to these?

Was Epic. Yes it had its ups and downs, but overall, it was awesome. I'm glad everyone had fun. I went with , , and a bunch of others who I'm not friends with on DA lol.

So... I think the best way to explain it is the same way my friends have done it, with a list of what happened.

Wednesday
Wake up Time: 10:00 AM
- Worked on Inuyasha costume for . Still had to cut out sleeves of the undershirt and sew the sleeves and collar on, as well as hem it all. Red shirt still not hemmed, nor is the front flap. Ears still not attached to wig. Nor is my leg holster made.
- came over around 2, wasn't expecting her till four, so undershirt wasn't finished yet for her to try on so I could finish the rest of the costume
- finished costume around 1:30, woke up who was sleeping on the couch so we could sleep upstairs

Thursday
Wake Up Time: 8:00 AM
- Packed, because I'm not smart enough to do it before hand. Packed up everything on the wicked long list and headed out to 's house.
- Got to 's house
- headed into Boston to pick up our badges.
- Suddenly realized I forgot the Inuyasha ears for 's costume. slight panic attack.
- Got sent around the entire perimeter of the convention center only to end up back where we were -.-
- Waited in line about an hour, not bad at all, but got stupid paper badges of fail that had our names printed on them in large letters, so you know, we could have people stalking us.
- Couldn't decide what group of people to go have dinner with so instead we went to Wagamama inside the mall, where the waiters were having a competition to see which of them could fill out a quiz of anime trivia first. One really cute waiter asked for our help. We helped him win using my iPhone, and we threw paper shuriken at another table that was helping another waiter
- Headed back to 's house where I found out I messed up 's costume and had to resew something by hand. then had put henna on my back to make Riza Hawkeye's tattoo from the manga. Took four hours. After we finished all the final costume stuff we didn't do before, it was four in the morning.

Friday
Wake Up Time: 6:30
Costume: Suki from Avatar
- Decided about an hour before we left that I was going to wear my entire costume on the train, got ready, helped get ready and we headed out
- Ended up talking to this really sketchy guy on the train. he was drunk. Wouldn't leave us alone.
- Walked forever to get to the hotel
- Went into the bathroom in the lobby to put my make-up on, it was a single bathroom, instead of one with stalls, so I was eventually kicked out and did my make-up in the hallway. Started having a panic attack.
- Forgot my allergy and ANXIETY medicine.
- Panic Attack. Cried to my mom that I never wanted to go to another convention. Then started freaking out more because I thought my facepaint was going to come off.
- Calmed down so I stopped crying and headed to the convention
- Got a call from the guy who made 's Tetsusaiga telling us to come pick it up.
- Took me a while to get to where we were supposed to meet, as I kept getting stopped. I realized - stupid me - that I forgot my fans. Can't be Suki without the fans.
- Met up with
- Finally got there and got the epic sword, carried it around until we could find because she is a ninja and also didn't have her phone. Dummy.
- Got stopped every 3 seconds for pictures
- Finally found her and she had found some ears.
- Went to the dealers room and artist's alley, didn't buy anything. Spent forever trying to find 's friends.
- Went to dinner with and , went outside to eat. can you believe I didn't have any allergies? I guess its cause it was the city.
- Had a huge panic attack when reminded me I had to go back to the hotel to get dressed for the formal ball, because I still hadn't decided what to do about that and the Travis Willingham panel. Called my mom, cried so much my make-up ran like crazy. finally decided to forgo the formal ball and only go to Travis' panel.
- Met up with FullmetalPipsqueak from the forums and she helped me calm down while I took off my make-up.
- Headed back to my hotel room to breathe and get changed. Henna tattoo came out great. Watched some Star Trek with then headed back to the convention
- Met up with two of our other friends, one being
- got in line for Travis
- Got in and my heart started pounding. (Good god he's hot)
- Met up with
- Was able to get up and ask a question. Showed him my tattoo which he thought was awesome everyone else did too and started cheering, then asked him to say the Episode 25 line correctly, which he did. He said he was pissed he didn't get the line right either, but thats what Mike McFarlane had him say.
- Got to hear the THAT WAS NOT A HUG story.
- Walked around and found and went back to the hotel room
- Took my allergy medicine and suddenly started getting allergy symptoms, wtf?

Saturday
Wake Up Time: 8:00
Costume: Riza Hawkeye from Fullmetal Alchemist
- Got to the convention center in time for the photoshoot
- a surprising amount of people recognized the tattoo from the manga
- Got a call from Graceria asking me to sign us in for the masquerade
- Went to sign us in for the Masquerade and realized I didn't know any of our information
- Tried to call Graceria to get the information
- Met up with the Al from our skit for the first time. . She is awesome. We discussed our worries and stress about this skit, got all the information finally, but we were both still worried that we couldn't pull it together in time, as we hadn't even rehearsed once.
- We hung out for a little, met some MORE cool people, and said we should meet up with everyone at the food court at 3:30.
- Went to check out the artists alley and dealers room again with
- Went to the Inuyasha photoshoot (which kinda failed) and the Avatar photoshoot (epic Koh cosplay!) and was jealous I wasn't in Suki cosplay that d
- Quickly went to the food court where only and our Winry showed up.
- We ran up to the masquerade and got in line to get set up without everyone in our group.
- It was seriously last minute before it started that everyone was there and we got the costumes from (THANK YOU AGAIN!!! WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!)
- Practiced the skit once
- Went on stage
- We did awesome [link]
- Watched the AMV competition
- won best editing
- Watched Hall Cosplay Contest
- We were called up and didn't realize it until someone else in our skit told us we were called and we ran up
- We got ice cream to celebrate and couldn't freakin' believe it. We were freaking out
- Finally headed back to the hotel, but was too excited, so I got changed and headed to the rave with
- Went back to the hotel where I completely crashed and fell into a sound sleep

Sunday
Wake Up Time: 8:00
Costume: Suki from Avatar
- Packed, got dressed and got facepaint on all in time to be at the con early
- Went to Artists Alley
- Talked to the woman who runs New England Fan Experience, she complimented me on my costuming skills and suggested I join the Costumers Guild in MA. she's gonna send me info. So cool!
- PHOTOSHOOT!!!! SO MUCH FUN!
- Fought a Ty Lee - action shots were taken. epic.
- got defeated by Ozai's angels
- Sokkas posed.... sexy style?
- got stopped for pictures every five seconds
- Dealers room
- Left for the train journey home - I'm surprised I survived

I miss everyone from the con SO MUCH and I hope to keep in touch with you all. Next con will be Connecticon and then hopefully the New England Fan Experience. I should really pre-register and figure out hotel for Connecticon. bah.